Besides maintaining the hosting of this website and occasionally posting on here, I can't say that I've been involved in 9/11 truth activism for the last 3 years. I suppose with this anniversary, I'm feeling reflective and even a little nostalgic about those intense times when spreading the truth about 9/11 seemed so urgent.
I was younger, of course, and I think I almost immediately understood that my feelings of urgency wouldn't last forever and that this kind of work has a tendency to burn people out. I only had to look around me to see activists who had succumbed to complacency, flakiness, and burnout. I also began to understand that this endeavor attracts large numbers of marginalized individuals who have an especially hard time being disciplined, reasonable, or effective. I came to realize that the numbers of people who really seemed to be on the ball were so tiny in comparison to all the rest, and that was very disheartening. It could be a terrifying thought--like the fate of the world was in your hands. And if that wasn't enough, we also had to deal with the small obstacle of the most powerful forces in the world being obligated to sabotage our cause at every turn.
While I am very aware of our hardships and failures, I am also proud of our accomplishments, both personally and as a member of a small movement within a movement that really is dedicated to the ideals we speak of. This organization and site that we created was inspired by a few others who take the process of truth as seriously as we do. We learned a lot from these people and tried to synthesize much of the revolutionary information we came across into one reliable and evolving source. It's not a new idea but I think we did contribute something unique and valuable.
It was very telling to watch the parallel explosion of Alex Jones and We Are Change in comparison to the quiet and lonely beginnings of TruthMove. Things have only become more quiet and lonely as time has passed, and I don't think that's entirely due to our own lack of initiative. From the start, there was much conniving and slandering going on from the most influential 9/11 activists/agents in NYC, but even disregarding that, there still is something fundamental that limits the impact of a project like TruthMove or Cooperative Research or Oil Empire. The fact is that the process of truth is not easy and most people will prefer truth-lite if it let's them continue to be lazy or indulges their sense of self-righteousness.
I am proud to be a member of a community, no matter how small, that places a higher value on truth than our own short-term, ego-based desires. While 9/11 activism is no longer my current approach, I do acknowledge that this one mythical piece of recent history contributed greatly to my own paradigm shift and has the potential to do the same for many others.
Truth, the process, is so much wider than 9/11 and extends beyond facts to a psychological, moral, and spiritual dimension. None of us are perfect, but at least we attempt to walk this path. Consideration, compassion, and justice are all inherent in Truth.
What does 9/11 mean? 9/11 is a huge blazing symbol seared into your brain; it's a message and its meaning is either what somebody else told you it was or it's what you came up with by evaluating and cross-checking relevant data from different sources and coming up with your own conclusions.
It may not seem like we've gotten anywhere, but all our actions have had reverberations and there are millions of people in the world who are awakening to the truth. I want to acknowledge that this project is gravely important and that our efforts are nothing short of heroic. It is easy to fall into seeing ourselves as powerless and pathetic and I want to remind myself and anyone else who is listening that it is just the opposite.